why bither

Why do I Even bother when you don't Even care about me. Why do I Evenbother when I can get someone better. Why can't I let u go. Why can't I free myself from this pain. It is not worth it. Everything I do won't make a difference. If there is one pill. I want to create a pill that will erase  my memories of u. Somehow I will love u till the day I die

i am nothing

Dear b,

You may have never read this blog nor known of it existence But one thing for sure you will never know how I felt for you. Deep down I know regardless of what I do. I am nothing to you compared to her. She will always be the one you pick. I am just your so called toy when she is not around. I can do anything for you. Yet I know you will still go back to her. I don't know what I did wrong in the past to deserve this But I know one thing for sure I love you from the bottom of my heart

missing u all the time

Dear b,

I don't know if u have read my blog or not but the truth is even when I say I want to forget about you my heart still refuse to. I really am missing u. I guess it is true like everyone says. One he get what he wants he will leave you. So now you are going to ignore me and leave me. Sigh! I felt like a bitch that stupidly fell in love with u.

why cant u b alittle more caring for me

Really? U could not even bother to do anything for me after all that I have give in. I know I am stupid. I just wish it was not this way. I really wish it was something else. Why can't u show me u care for me. U want me. Why can't I get ur full attention. I am so disappointed with u and myself. I sometimes really wish I didn't know u

let go and forget

Dear b,

Maybe it is time for me to let u go. Since u have been so cold to me for the past one year. All those times we had made it so hard for me to let u go. I cannot stop thinking about u every day wondering how is ur day. But I know there is No place for me in ur heart she is more important than anyone else. I don't deny you are the jerk that I fell for and will always loved even when we are not meant to be together. I will b there when u need me

broken heart

Dear b,

you may not know it breaks my heart everytime i see her post pictures of both of your memories. i really wish it would b me and you. but i know it will never b because you are too far away from me. you made it a point to go there to b with her. not to b with me. sometimes i really wonder did you every like me or am i just your fling? i really dont know who am i to you. just a friend with benefits that soon to happen? really should i wait for you? i dont know all i know i am broken now.