heart broken

i am so heart broken. you dont even bother to message me. dont even bother to think about me, think about my feelings. No nothing. What am Iexactly to you? Just a toy when you have a bad day or extreme boredom? Why can't you be more caring to me. Make me feel loved. I feel like I give and give yet you never give me anything. How much have you showed that you care for me. How much have you showed me that you want me, you need me? I find that I need you more than you need me. Why can't I be the one? Why can't you leave her for me? Why can't my one wish from God is to get you come true?