should i? will i? or would i?

i have been thinking and thinking. i cannot stop think about it. i really want to fly there to see you. just spending a few days with you will make me happy but i know when i come back i will be even more sad than ever. i would miss you even more. even now itself i am already missing you. i guess it is just like my friend said there is someone that you love yet you are not suppose to be together. maybe to let you go is a way to make you happier. i really wish i could spend more time with you show you how much i care and show you what sort of person i am. i cannot not hold back when i think that you are actually already with someone else. i dont want to spoil someone else relationship nor would i want someone else to spoil mine. i will wait till the day when you decided who you want to choose.